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16/3/2022 0157- Fasa membingungkan  Kenapa sulit sekali ya? lewat malam begini juga kelewatan memori memori kita, Padahal aku itu sudah tidak merasakan apa apa kesakitan terkait dengan perasaan, Sedih enggak,Sayang juga biasa aja,jujur sih rasa itu masih ada cuman udah beransur hilang. Kamu gimana ya pokoknya? Bisa mengendahkan hal yang terkait dengan perasaan segampang itu. Aku juga bingung kadang like how did you manage to escape from that situation. Cause if i know how,Then i could do it to myself either. And i dont even need to write all this stupid shit that played on my mind everytime. Tapi gapapa lah ya lagian ramalan kamu benar, Merubah rasa sayang dan cinta aku sama kamu untuk beransur hilang, Kamu hebat ya. Aku doakan agar kamu bisa dapat apa jua yang kamu impikan sesuai dengan keinginan kamu. Mesti keliatan banget kan perubahan aku? Intinya aku juga bingung bagaimana bisa peribadiku berubah, Apa personalitiku berubah sesuai mengikut keadaan, Aku juga ngak tau soalnya, Ta...

 8/3/2022 8:14 PM -Closure- Funny isn't it how fast did time can change our relationship, We were so close back then and now we were back at a stranger phase, Even the coffee couldn't make my morning better than seeing your chat, To keep talking with you even though I'd no idea what we really talk about, it just felt like home. Even at the small things, we loved to have an argument over them. If I could turn back the time I'd really wish I don't even have to know who you are, To really bare the pain of all of this, But if we managed to go to the past I can't even stop myself either from knowing someone like you, To be honest I'm still missing that day but nothing I can do about it. The other part of me keeps saying no to being the person I used to be. A person who cares so much about every little thing, A person who priorities others before himself, A person who's always trying his best to put a smile on other faces, A person that willing to do anything ...