Closure

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 8/3/2022 8:14 PM

-Closure-

Funny isn't it how fast did time can change our relationship,

We were so close back then and now we were back at a stranger phase,

Even the coffee couldn't make my morning better than seeing your chat,

To keep talking with you even though I'd no idea what we really talk about, it just felt like home.


Even at the small things, we loved to have an argument over them.

If I could turn back the time I'd really wish I don't even have to know who you are,

To really bare the pain of all of this,

But if we managed to go to the past I can't even stop myself either from knowing someone like you,

To be honest I'm still missing that day but nothing I can do about it.

The other part of me keeps saying no to being the person I used to be.


A person who cares so much about every little thing,

A person who priorities others before himself,

A person who's always trying his best to put a smile on other faces,

A person that willing to do anything that he could only to felt at home,


I really thought I could be that person.

But I can't. I'm sorry

I can't deal with myself,it's weird and so confusing.

I wonder how did you manage to do that but hopefully soon enough,

I'll get the answer.









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