Old Chat

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Did you know why did i love to read the old chat,

Cause it always remind us on how far did we actually grown from our relation,

And of course because of missing the old of us,

The way we communicate, laugh to the stupid joke or even stressed out about each others life.


Its a blessing to know someone like you truly,

I just hope that we could actually be more than just a friend,

So that i can acknowledge your existence,

Appreciate our moment even more.


But yeah reality doesn't cooperate with dreams.

They live differently.

And that's why i still loved you even though i said that I moved towards my past.

I love to be stupid for the matters I cared about the most, People don't understand. They laugh.

what else I could be more than just being a place for peace?


I'm not a smart man but i know what love is.

A quotes that Gump used to say to Hannah.

A true example of how life should be,

Do what we love and find our own happiness.


Difference cases of my life story,

i did find my happiness but i failed to do what did i love.

I sacrifice my trust in a whole lot of people,

And at the end, i still feel the same pain.


I don't know whether its wrong for liking someone that I feel comfort to be with,

My heart is destroyed but my hope to feel love again never ends,

I just hope that one day i could find that person even if it is not mean to be you,

Thanks for lighting hope in my cold heart even for a while,

It feels good.







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